uh Oh...

i'm telling you.. today is insurance agent day... either that or the army uniform is a real insurance agent magnet.... hehe..

met up with one of my (many) insurance agents today...and whilst taking a smoke, another insurance agent came up to me... i mean, what do i have written on my face? I NEED INSURANCE? hehe... anyway, being the stupid, polite guy that i am, talked to him for a while and kindly obliged to everything he said... Man i hate myself...

Ran into edna whilst waiting for my insurance agent... well that was an awkward incident... Hmmm.. just kinda makes me wonder... Why? I mean, we're supposed to be frens right? maybe its me... i should open up my mouth more... NAH!! later i say something wrong den end up fighting again...

Anyways, can't wait for this weekend to be over... Damn army half marathon is on sunday... the thought of having to run the damn 21km makes my knees weak... And the thought of having to get up so damn early is even like worse....

MY DAMN LAVA LAMP IS SPOIL!!!! :( The stupid bulb ain't bright enough...or rather hot enough... so much so that it only heats up the damn wax till a certain level and it gets stuck there... DAMN IT!!! oh well, looks like have to get another bulb....

I think i'm not doing any better now den i was a few months back... in fact honestly if you ask me, i'm still at the same spot.... Maybe now, i've learnt to appreciate my frens more, though the same empty feeling still lingers around... Well, there is only so much i can do to curb it... I guess i just have to let it flow...

I'm gonna be 22 in exactly a week... honestly, i dun feel a thing about growing a year older... not excited... not happy...

Edna : "So how u gonna celebrate your birthday this year?"

Me : "Celebrate? for what? Nothing to celebrate what..."

Yes, this was what i said to her this afternoon...

Come to think of it, we would have been together for 2 yrs, had we not broken up... Another thing to add to the big list of IFs...