Sunday, November 28, 2004

Handwriting Analysis

Interestingly enough, this is rather accurate... Amazing... Thanks Mandy.....hehe... Now, all of u try to spot this within me....




For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Melvin has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Melvin fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Melvin has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Melvin seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Melvin seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.



Melvin is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. He works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps him from success. Often, Melvin changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes he changes because he feels he needs a different challenge. Melvin feels dejected. This feeling relates to his failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. He must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from him or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change his life.



Melvin is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Melvin basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.



In reference to Melvin's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Melvin slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Melvin can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.



Melvin is secretive. He has secrets which he does not wish to share with others. He intentionally conceals things about himself. He has a private side that he intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in his past.



When Melvin expresses an opinion on a issue he will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change his mind. In other words... Melvin is stubborn. When he is wrong about something that he has decided upon, he will have trouble admitting he is wrong. Changing Melvin's mind can be very difficult. Once Melvin makes up his mind, he doesn't want to be confused with the facts!



Melvin is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes. Melvin will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Melvin an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Melvin is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Melvin is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.



People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Melvin doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Ring a bell?

Isn't it weird?

This kinda bothers me...
Isn't wierd that at times, u try to help another person, but to the other person, he/she just doesn't understand and takes it the wrong way? I mean, ok... maybe i'm in no position to tell u what to do, but hey, opinions matter right? if it doesn't den i guess it really does not matter trying to talk to me about it... you just probably would want to talk to some fish or maybe a dog... at least you know they would listen and not answer u... really weird if u ask me... Hmmm...is it me? opinions anybody?

Friday, November 26, 2004

Nobody's Home

its funny how this song kinda tickles me and makes me think... can't help but feel a sense of sadness when i hear this song and picture this girl.....

btw, shoutout to the angelus for the bbq!!! and the rest of my frens whom i've not had a chance to talk to for some time now... sorry guys, been really busy of late...i'll be back...i promise... ;)


I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
I's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Monday, November 22, 2004

pat here... mel's on the phone talking to me now... so i shall take this opportunity to............. advertise my blog!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! check me out!!!!!!!

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Depression

Should it bother u that i'm alive or dead?
Would u even care?
To u, i'm just a fragment of your imagination,
an ancient piece of your past.
It won't matter to u even if i ended up in a hospital,
jail or even a cemetary.
You may think i'm just trying to get your sympathy with all tat i write here,
but the truth of the matter is that this is how i feel.
This is the feeling that i have been battling for the last half a year.
And till today, i know i'm still losing this fight.
Say what you want, say what u wish.
To me, as much as i want to get over it,
i know this will always be a piece of me that i cannot deny.
From the day you took my heart and crushed it,
ran away and disappeared from my life forever,
this i will always remember.
No amount of time can ever make me forget that,
as to say that nobody will ever take your place.
Though sad but true,
i still love you.
No matter what you've done or how u see me,
I will always look at u and tell myself,
That for that brief moment in time,
I had that chance to love u.
Though far and wide the distance might be now,
soon in time will come that day,
whereby all the things will come back to stay.

ok, i'm depressed....again.... just came back from edna's place. was just suppposed to help her fix her computer, but i guess i just could not control all that pent up emotion inside of me. which sadly i know, some questions will never have the answers to...

Thursday, November 11, 2004

I miss you...

I miss my frens
I miss my family
I miss all whom i've passed
I miss all those i've known in my life

I miss love
I miss being in love
I miss loving one person to death
I miss all the times
I miss me

Just what else could i miss?

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Its over...

*sigh*

Not going to KL anymore... Charmain has got something on and so do i... so have to postphone the trip....ah well, its not all that bad... always save the best for last...next time maybe...

Anyway, the first exco just finished on monday... not bad... though i nearly got knocked out by the end of the night... talk about tiring man...

My damn cpu is gettin slower and slower... think i have to reformat it again... but problem is i have too much data inside... WAH!!!1die man... just took out all the mp3's and backed it up into the mobile hard disk... never realised i had so much mp3s.. about 14.1 GB worth in al... shitz man... next to go is all my videos... currently, have about 11.8 GB worth of it...not to mention a whole stack of cds that i have already backed up into... wow, i starting to feel like some ah beng running an illegal vcd and mp3 business.... hehe...piracy rulez man...hehe....

kays, going to meet the kids later for lunch as well as maybe some pool... yups... so toodles... blog another day....

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Its been a long time....

HEYLO!!!! To all that missed me, i missed u too....to all who dun, well, i miss u too...hehe...

so sorry i haven't been blogging for ages.... its just that work has been KILLING ME!!!!! been absolutely exhausted for the last week and come to think of it, i still have about a year to go before the stupid NDP05 is over... DAMN!!!

Anyway, there have been lots of things happening recently... Roch got himself into some trouble of late, which to me is pure stupidity...not roch, but the other person he is in conflict with.... All i can say is that it amazes me at times how incredibly stupid the human brain can be..(or is it just the person?)

roch, whatever it is, i'll be just a phonecall away and if u need me, i'll mobilise the army for u...hehe... on a more serious note, i've been in the position you are in and i understand that it really sucks... but hey, be brave and follow your own rules... it never fails...

planning to go on abroad again, though this time, it might not materialize, as been having certain cashflow problems of late...(den again, who doesn't?) hopefully can get it resolved asap... really sucks to go out and have no cash...

I seriouly think i need to get into another relationship... anyone interested? (juz kidding...)cuz my life is going back into that monotonous state again... nowadays, i stay in late in the office, looking for something to do... hey, it beats going home early and having nothing to do at all.... hmmm maybe, its just me...being a homebody isn't really my cup of tea....

Too lazy to blog now... need lots of rest... damn tired....