Saturday, May 24, 2008

Its been a long time...

I've not sat down and just do nothing but surf the net for the longest time... looking at the last time i wrote in here, whats it been.... 6 months? wow.. time flies...

been to Taiwan and back... not really the best since its more for work den a holiday.. holiday coming soon, Hong Kong in about 2 weeks time.. can't wait really.. the thought of not having to wake up in the morning for work is really a fantasy to me..

guess work and now sch is taking up too much of my time.. especially work, but somehow have to live with it i guess... thats how u put food on the table...

Lots of things have changed since i last blogged... people have come and gone.. people i used to think that i could never live without have slowly but surely started fading in my life... its a sad thought really... friends mean the world to me, and yet the thought that one day, u realize that u've not seen that particular person for an extended period of time, the feeling is really odd to describe... baffling really... from young, friends to me have been and probably still is the most important aspect of my life.. without them, i would never be who i am..

i guess all our paths might cross again one day..
till den..
i guess we have to learn to keep ourselves happy,
whatever it takes...

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Its been a while....

Work...

That has been the flavor of several months...
no time for everything..
friends, girlfriend, close buddy s, family...
The irony of it all, I'm at work ranting this out.
Oh well.. that's life i guess....

Quarter Century has come and gone.. Being 25 certainly takes its toll on you... You start thinking of things that never bothered you in th past. Could it be another of a quarter life crisis?? I really hope not..

Anyways, made a life changing decision recently.. Just hope that i won't live to regret it, not that i have a choice really.. But still, one can only hope...

To all those i have not seen in a while..

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Whatever & Anything...

Would you choose whatever or anything???

And if you dun choose, would you end up with nothing in the end??

Saturday, May 26, 2007

In The Search For Truth

You can only seek that which you know and when you really understand , you already have it, so it need not be sought. You cannot seek something you do not know.Whatever you seek and whenever you seek it, it is always only One and the One is what you are already.So you cannot seek something you do not know and when you know you are seeking, you already have it. When you seek the world, you get misery and when you want to find your way out of misery, you will find the Divine.A man lost a penny and was looking for it in a bush when he found a huge treasure. He was not seeking for treasure but only for his lost penny. In the same way, when you seek one thing you may get something else and it may be much greater than what you lost.The truth, or Self, cannot be sought directly.

~ Ragavendra Swami

Another Word for Love

I knew a woman who always found an excuse to love.I met her working at the most difficult job of my life - as a helper in an after-school daycare center. I was completely unprepared for the work; I had no training and my temperament seemed to be particularly unsuited to the position.I reminded myself that I was hired to watch the children, play with them and lead arts and crafts - not fix all of their problems, of which there were many. And my only help was Mrs. Tucker, a 73-year-old retired social worker who worked with me. All that stood between the kids and disaster was me and a 73-year-old woman. And I wasn't that sturdy a defense! But I soon learned that Mrs. Tucker was a master with these children."Some children just need more love," she always said. A case in point was Timmy. Timmy received special help at school because of his emotional problems. He was developmentally delayed. He often fought with other children and was a compulsive hair-puller. I could never get close to Timmy - he did not trust anyone. Anyone, that is, except Mrs. Tucker. He responded her. He genuinely loved her because, I came to believe, she loved him.One day a fight broke out between Timmy and one of the other children. After separating them, Mrs. Tucker directed Timmy to sit in a chair. He screamed, "I HATE YOU, Mrs. Tucker! You're a mean, old lady! I hate you!""I know you hate me right now, Timmy," she said firmly, "but I'm sure not going to let you pull the other children's hair."After a while Timmy had calmed down and Mrs. Tucker called him over. His cheeks were still dirty and bore dried tear streaks. I could not hear their conversation, but I saw Timmy put his arms around her neck. When I walked by I heard him say, "I'm sorry I called you a mean old lady, Mrs. Tucker." I knew he meant it.A little later Mrs. Tucker said to me, "Timmy just needs more love than other children."On another occasion I heard Timmy's mother say, "You work magic with him, Mrs. Tucker. He doesn't respond to anybody like he does to you."Maybe so, but sometimes "magic" is just another word for "love."

-- Steve Goodier

Thought of The Day

Encourage one another. Many times a word of praise or thanks or appreciation or cheer has kept people on their feet.

-- Charles Swindoll

Love

Love cannot endure indifference. It needs to be wanted. Like a lamp, it need to be fed out of the oil of another's heart, or tis flame burns low.

- Henry Ward Beecher

Thought Of The Day

Do not place the words of gurus, ministers, priests, scientists, psychologists, friends -- or my words -- higher than the feelings of your own being. You can learn much from others, but the deepest knowledge must come from within yourself. Your own consciousness is embarked upon a reality that basically can be experienced by no other, that is unique and untranslatable, with its own meaning, following its own paths of becoming.

-- Seth/Jane Roberts

Thought of The Day

When Mozart was composing at the end of the eighteenth century, the city of Vienna was so quiet that fire alarms could be given verbally, by a shouting watchman mounted on top of St. Stefan's Cathedral. In twentieth-century society, the noise level is such that it keeps knocking our bodies out of tune and out of their natural rhythms. This ever-increasing assault of sound upon our ears, minds, and bodies adds to the stress load of civilized beings trying to live in a highly complex environment.

~Halpern, Steven

Monday, May 07, 2007

Thought Of The Day

Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life and repeat to yourself, the most comforting words of all; this, too, shall pass.

-- Ann Landers (1918 - 2002)

Sunday, April 08, 2007

A Piece of True Love and Humanity

Got this of another blog... Really meaningful and could teach us a few lessons about life..

Life is not always about winning but a lot of time, it is about bringing a piece of true love and humanity into this world. This is what the boys in the story did; they had put aside winning in that moment. Certainly something which we all need to learn and constantly remind ourselves.
What would you do?….you make the choice. Don’t look for a punch line, there isn’t one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: “When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?”
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. “I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.”
Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, “Do you think they’ll let me play?” Shay’s father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay’s father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, “We’re losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we’ll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.”
Shay struggled over to the team’s bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father’s joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay’s team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay’s team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.
At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn’t even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay’s life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman’s head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, “Shay, run to first! Run to first!” Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.
He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, “Run to second, run to second!” Catching his breath,
Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball . the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher’s intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman’s head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, “Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay”
Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, “Run to third!
Shay, run to third!”
As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, “Shay, run home! Run home!” Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.
“That day”, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, “the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world”.
Shay didn’t make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

Breakdown is inherent in the family relationship, and the tendency is to move into fear. In fear, we either become aggressive, trying to mold others to our will, or we retract, withholding our love. Make love your habit, regardless of the circumstance, and breakdown will give way to breakthrough.
-- Rev. Mary Manin Morrissey

4 WIVES

Once upon a time there was a rich King who had four wives.

He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to the finest of delicacies. He gave her nothing but the best.He also loved the 3rd wife very much and was always showing her off to neighboring kingdoms. However, he feared that one day she would leave him for another.He also loved his 2nd wife. She was his confidant and was always kind, considerate and patient with him.Whenever the King faced a problem, he could confide in her, and she would help him get through the difficult times.The King's 1st wife was a very loyal partner and had made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and kingdom. However, he did not love the first wife . Although she loved him deeply, he hardly took noticeof her!

One day, the King fell ill and he knew his time was short. He thought of his luxurious life and wondered, I now have four wives with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone."Thus, he asked the 4th wife , "I loved you the most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will You follow me and keep me company?""No way!", replied the 4th wife, and she walked away without another word. Her answer cut like a sharp knife right into his heart.The sad King then asked the 3rd wife, "I loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?""No!", replied the 3rd wife. "Life is too good! When you die, I'm going to remarry!" His heart sank and turned cold.He then asked the 2nd wife, "I have always turned to you for help and you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!", replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only walk with you to your grave." Her answer struck him like a bolt of lightning, and the King was devastated.

Then a voice called out: "I'll go with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go." The King looked up, and there was his first wife. She was very skinny as she suffered from malnutrition and neglect. Greatly grieved, the King said, "I should have taken much better care of you when I had the chance!"

In truth, we all have the 4 wives in our lives: Our 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and e ffort we lavish in making it look good, it will leave us when we die. Our 3rd wife is our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, it will all go to others. Our 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how much they have been there for us, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.And our 1st wife is our Soul. Often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the world. However, our Soul is the only thing that will follow us wherever we go. Cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now, for it is the only part of us that will follow us to the throne of God and continue with us throughoutEternity.

Thought for the day: Remember, when the world pushes you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray.

Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections .

Monday, April 02, 2007

Sexy Zodiac Signs

How true is this?? u decide..

VIRGO
The Virgin Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right
now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring.
Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to.
Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted.
Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.

SCORPIO
The sex addict. Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy.
Intelligent.
Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in
bed.)
(GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy.
Attractive.
Easy going. Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic.
Caring.

LIBRA
The lame lover. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They
meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet!
Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person
you wanna #### with...
u might end up crying... the most irresistible.

ARIES
The Liar, Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to #### with.
Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed.
Excellent kisser
EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships.=) Addictive. Loud.
best in bed.

AQUARIUS
Does it in the water. Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind.
Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely
energetic.
Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations.
Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.
Amazing in bed, THE BEST LOVERS BETTER THAN EVERYONE!

GEMINI
Does Twosomes. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good
in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the #### out.
Trustworthy. Always happy.
Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a
beautiful smile. Generous. Strong.
ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.

LEO
The Lion in bed Great talker. Sexy and passionate.
Laid back.
Knows how to have fun. Is really good at. Great kisser. Unpredictable.
Outgoing. Down to earth.
Addictive. Attractive. Loud.
Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with.
Rare to find. Good when found.

CANCER
The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ### appeal.Great in bed!!!
Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever
meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it.
Freak in bed. Spontaneous.Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But
will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should
hold on to.

PISCES
The Piece of ass. Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention.
Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high ### appeal. Has the last word.
The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around.
Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way.
Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful.
A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants.
Loves to joke.
Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

CAPRICORN:.
The passioate Lover Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.
Intelligent. Sexy.
Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long
relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants.
BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in
sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke.

Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget.
Smart.

TAURUS
The Tramp Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find!
Loves being in long
relationships.Likes to give a good fight for what they
want.
Extremely outgoing. Sexy as .........
Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny.

Awesome personality. Stubborn.
Sexual as .........
Most caring person you will ever meet!
One of a kind. Not one to #### with.
Are the most sexiest people on earth!

SAGITTARIUS
The Sexy one. Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to
find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one.
So much love to give. Not one to mess with.
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet!
Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed?
Not the kind of person you wanna with you might end up crying.

Man are from Mars and Women from Venus

This is a good one. retrieved from forum: hahaha... how true...

I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so
much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I
have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their
heart.

FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed.
Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to
hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?"
Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.
The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with
her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big
unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on
several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to
take so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to
compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit.
We went onto the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings.
Let me tell you...she was so excited. She must have thought I was
one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey."
She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement.
Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all
dear, let's go to the cashier."
I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't
feel like it." Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled. WHAT?"
I then said "honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while.
You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?"
Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Food for Thought

"To the world, you may only be one person,
But to that person, you might be his / her world."

Nothing need be said about this.
Straight forward and to the point.
Full Stop.

Monday, March 05, 2007

More time for myself.

Its been a while since i blogged..

Guess driving around in the stink mobile has kinda got me hooked.. he he..
Life's not exactly been good since coming back from Australia..
some of it have been better, some of it have taken a turn for the worst..
Oh well, you win some, u lose some...

Have nearly died twice now while driving.. Being the P Plated driver that i am, nearly drove into the ocean on one occasion, and turned out of a filter lane on another occasion, nearly being beheaded by the oncoming bus, which i failed to notice... good thing is, so far, have not encountered my first road block yet.. mildly could be due to the fact that I'm good?? Na, i think otherwise..

Works been its usual bitchy self.. Even when we are having so called "ad min" time, there still seems to be so much to do.. It never ends man, I'm telling u.. that light in the end of the tunnel seems to be getting dimmer and dimmer by the second.. Sometimes, i really wonder if my boss is aware of the pressure that we face from him.. He seems so nonchalant about it at times, like as though we owe him a living.. But then again, on the flip side, there are moments whereby i feel he's doing a good job.. Maybe its just me..

I really need to spend more time with myself.. kinda get the feeling that I'm losing touch with myself, being so busy with work and everybody else.. always putting others before me.. dun get me wrong, i enjoy helping others. The feeling it brings is one of the best in the world, if there is even a comparison for it. But sometimes, just sometimes, i question myself. I always help others but will others help me when my time of need comes? I'm not going to doubt some of the people that i know will cover my back. but how about others? Have i done enough to "qualify" as a part of their life?? I guess its something that i can only live in time to find out.. Sometimes the least expected will surprise you in more ways than one..

More time for myself.
More time for myself.
More time for myself.

Thats my new resolution for the time being.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

*The Story of the 8 Monkeys*

(This is based on an actual experiment conducted in the UK) :

Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading
to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling.

Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed
with ice water, which makes them miserable. Soon enough, whenever a monkey
attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys, not wanting to be
sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.

Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder.

Then one of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the
room. Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other
monkeys are doing the obvious. But undaunted, he immediately begins to climb
the ladder.

All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly. He has no idea why.
however, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.

A second original monkey is removed and replaced. The newcomer again
attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out
of him.

This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the
receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other
monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new
monkey.

One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced. Eight new monkeys are now
in the room. None of them have ever been sprayed by ice water.

None of them attempt to climb the ladder. All of them will enthusiastically
beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.

*..................and that is how most companies' policies get established.*

Sometimes, it feels like this at the workplace. Employees just do certain
procedures because others are doing the same....without knowing why they do
them and whether what they have been doing all along can be improved or
changed. They say its the policy. At times, it feels it's just the
standard practices that have been passed down from employee to employee.
Nothing else.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

My Pictorial Holidays...

What better way to end the year with bad hair and a screwed up face??

Jennifer's House...

Christmas at the Yaps...

The day before Christmas...


The Angelus Choir caroling at Orchid Country Club..

Monday, December 18, 2006

A big fat hole in my pocket...




This is the car I'm getting... the exact model and exact colour... Finally, after so many years of planning to get a damn car, its finally coming.. no more resolutions for the next 5 yrs at least!!!! ha ha!!

No doubt it'll only be a weekend car but thankfully, this lifestyle of mine suits it perfectly... ha ha!!! if all goes well, then it should be here by the end of next month.. time to start the countdown...

Next up on the list will be to save enough money to get back to sch... damn degree courses are costing a bomb nowadays but haiz, no choice la...

Gosh!!! haven't done any Christmas shopping yet.. Should really start soon though..

These days are the best.. where there is no work and everything revolves around lazing at home and wondering what to do for the day... though i must admit that it kinda takes some getting used to..

next up on the calendar, CHRISTMAS!!!