hours to go.....

here i am, sitting at home, blasting music.... Took half the day and tomorrow off....great weather.... nice and sleepy...

I'm less than 12 hours away from turning 22... still feels the same to me... Come to think of it, i wonder how it'll be in 22 yrs time?

I wouldn't say i've lived these past 22 years of my life to the fullest, but then again, i would not trade the joys and experiences i've gained for anything in the world...

I remember the first time i had a crush on this girl... that was like when i was 14 i think...kay it was a bit late i know, but i was from an all boy school... so contact with girls was like sacred..hehe...anyways, she was from church... nothing ever did work out, cuz i never had the balls to actually go talk to her... hehe... now as i look back, i wonder, if i did go talk to her, would it have made a diff?

Maybe...

i've never been as outspoken and noisy as i am now... when i was 14, i was kinda like the real quiet guy... small & silent.... it was throughout the years in church and especially in the choir that i grew out of my shell and learned that if i dun speak, basically nothing ever will happen...so here i am...hehe... still small, but noisy as hell... hehe :P

Now i shudder at the thought of turning a year older... the uncertainties...the thoughts of maybe this might be my last day on earth... the things that i've not done... well, maybe i should not think like that... Hmmm....

Basically, i've devised a list of things that i hope will change until my next birthday next year... hopefully, some of it will happen....

- Get my Dip (FINALLY!)
- Get my liciense( Soon as i stop being lazy....)
- Quit smoking (Gotta do it, my niece is coming out at the end of the year... Dun wanna be a bad example..)
- Be more patient
- Treasure everybody and everything

Shall not be greedy and wish for too many things... guess this will do for now... Dman it!!! looks like a lot of work needs to be done..... Haiz....

Right now, actually the only thing that i wish for is the same thing i've always been wishing for(cept for maybe the last 2 years)... that is to spend it with the person i love... just the 2 of us... at the beach... on a break-water... staring at the stars and dreaming away...

Sounds so drama right? well, its just kinda nice to start dreaming once in a while... shall not venture into the unhappy... over that stage already...

Well, however it is i celebrate this birthday, i guess i should be thankful... that people still remember... that i can celebrate... for all the things that happened that gave me a reason to live, to find the reasons...Man, this is getting depressing...

STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm MAD!!! :P