The age of the life less led by many...

I think age is finally beginning to catch up with me...
All my life, i dun think i've ever things i was suppose to be doing at the age..
take for example, my career choice.. who goes to the door of the government and asks to be enlisted in the army?? At the age of 16, whereby everyone else in the right frame of mind is slogging for thier 'O's, i nicely go into the army and serve my country.. Sounds patriotic?? my ass.. at 18, the whole world is enjoying their youth, going out to partys and getting drunk, i'm slogging this little butt of mine in the army, playing 'mother' to a bunch of guys who have no choice but to serve their country... At 23, i get a rank that most would associate to a guy in their late 20's..
Not that i'm complaining really.. this job has taught me many things, and moulded me into somebody i never thought i could be.. but as of many things, there is always a price to pay.. and this price for me, is the fact that i will never be able to live the life that everyone else went through...
I will never be able to tell anyone how poly life was.. just to name a point.. as little a deal as it moght be, it contributes to a whole bigger picture...

All these thoughts in my head seem to be permantly stuck there.. and its really affecting me in more ways than one..

realise how i must be sounding like a guy who has some permant disability..
well i'm halfway there i reckon..