Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Correction

Apparently, he didn't ask for directions. He had a seizure, which caused him to lose control of his car. It crashed into an MRT viaduct along punggol i think.. After the crash, he got out of the car and walked about 50m to the HDB block before collapsing in front of the rubbish dump i think. By the time he was rushed to the hospital, he was pronounced dead.

And all this happened at 7 in the morning, on his way to St Anne's Church for morning service.

Went for the servide last night. My godma was in consolable. Saw my godsister's, Tina & Caroline, whom i aven't met in close to about 5 years now i think. Oh ya, uncle victor, aunt janet and evelyn was there as well.. (Oh, btw, uncle victor and aunt janet are my sister's godparents. Evelyn is my sister's Godsis. Just though u should know...hehe) But i guess the worse was godma. She was trying to put on a brave front, fighting to hold back the tears, which every now and then, threatened to flow. I really admire godma. Just want her to know that though i might not be close, i will always be around. Just hope that she knows that....

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Life

Its amazing how timely a reminder is sent, just when we start to believe that life is becoming a bed of roses... the truth is, it never is a bed of roses... with only a pair of eyes, you can only see so much happening around you but are you really aware of all that is going on?

Last sat, i attended a funeral service of Emmanuel, a 10 yr old boy who had died due to dengue fever...Personally, i have never met him though i would have loved to.... Its amazing how minor things such as dengue fever can become so massive... The image of Emmamuel's mother, beating her chest and blaming herself still remains embedded in my mind. It is a sight that i can never forget. The sadness, the tears and the sorrow was all moulded into one picture, frozen in a frame. And as i sat through the service, i could not help but start thinking about what was going on in the world...

With the recent tsunami incident as well as all other instances whereby people's lives were at stake, it got me thinking... is there only so much we can do? what can we do in our own lives, to benefit others? is there only so much we can do? that question burned rapidly in my head from saturday onwards...

As the weekend died down, it was back to work today... The thoughts from sat did remain in the back of my mind to serve as a reminder that life is as fragile, if not more fragile than it really ever is... Until i recieved this phonecall from my mum 12 hours ago...

Mum: Mel, your godfather has just passed away this morning...

Me: What happened?

Mum: Apparently, he was driving your godma this morning to somewhere. And when he stopped to ask for directions, when he got out of the car, he just collapsed.

Me: WHAT!!!! Could it be a heart attack?

Mum: We are not too sure. According to your godma, they can only collect the body tomorrow.


Later today, i'm gonna attend the funeral over at a church in the Hougang area.

(Being the paranoid person that i am, i kept asking corrinne today how she would react if i died...She just kept slapping me on the arm and told me to shut up... hehe)

The one thing that i have grown to realise over this weekend and actually, in fact, from the tsunami incident, is that life can be so unpredictable. As cliche as it sounds, sadly its true... and with that, i think i shall revert back to a quote a teacher of mine once quoted to me:

" Live life as if you are gonna die tomorrow."

Life really is too short to have any more regrets.
Do things that you've always wanted to do but will never do because of misc reasons.
It might be your only one chance ever to do it.

For me, i would just wanna tell everybody that i love them. Cuz i might never get a chance to tell it to them.
And if i have ever done anything wrong towards you, pls forgive me. I can only hide behind the excuse that i'm young & rash. It isn't much of an excuse but it is true.

I pray for Emmanuel and my Godfather, Anthony. May you guys rest in peace in heaven.

And till we meet....

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Great Advice

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat.
Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.

Don't stagnate.!
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won.
Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.

Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, anddangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.

Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Go on that trip.
Don't postpone it.

Say those words.
Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.
Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.
It is true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in your God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your lifethat you'll never get back. Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence oflove is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

Monday, January 17, 2005

This week ina paragraph

Spent the whole of last week trying to figure out the code for the NDP website... Anybody knows how to do PHP? Really appreciate it if anybody could give me a quick crash course.... considering my due date is the 24th of Jan... Hmmmm....

Anyways, its official.... I'm attached again... *Smiles at himself gleefully* Singlehood is over!!! Just for those who dun already know, make a guess who it is? You'll be pleasently surprised....

But whatever it is, and what some might think or say, I guess what really matters is how we feel about it... I might not be the ideal person but hey, if i don't give it a shot, will i ever know? It might not be the right time, but i guess if i let it pass, i'll never ever know if it was.... You dig?

Spent the whole of today with her... Watched Ocean's 12 and den crashed at my place to watch The Incredibles. :) Slacked @ the jetty after that... Wished that could last forever... Just the 2 of us, looking at the stars, enjoying each other's company....

Wasted i had to go home, cuz i promised Chris & Gab that i would join them for the game... For the record, Singapore Won!!!! Not bad!!!!

Thursday, January 13, 2005

busy as hell

i swear i'm going crazy trying to do up this ndp website.....luckily, there have been soem things in life to keep me sane, to put a smile on my face everyday!!!!!

Thursday, January 06, 2005

???

Well, its confirmed... i ain''t going to indonesia... not until next month at least... after all the excitement and complications, the flight finally took off...Without me in it of course... wish i could go, but i guess there's always next time... I hope...

Well, to look on the bright side of things, i guess there would be lots of things i would miss if i were to go... Frens, family and the constant moaning and groaning of singaporeans....hehe... Until next month at least, gonna spend as much time with frens and the people i love and cherish so much...

" Falling in Love"

Falling in love, the sweetest feeling
To be loved and to love.
Looking into the eyes of the other,
You can't help but think how you are the luckiest person around.
To you, everything about him/her is beautiful
To you, he/she completes you.
The final piece of your jigsaw puzzle is complete.
No call a day, keeps you sad and at bay.
But in the arms of each other,
the world becomes an invisible place
To which only both of you exist.
To begin this new journey,
everything is forsaken.
All to give and much more to take....

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Am I?

As of now, i'm still unsure of whether i'll be going over to indonesia or not... won't really know until thursday so i'll be on standby until den...

one part of me is really dying to go, cuz i've always wanted to do something like this... you know, be involved in real life situations and all... its really an experience nothing in this world can be traded for....one month there could be a difference between life and death for many people and whether or not i come back in a piece is also another consideration.... on the other hand, the other part of me is really reluctant to go... cuz of the people i know i'll miss... you know who you are...hehe...

so ya, well hopefully a decision can be made soon enough and if i do get the chance to do this, whatever choice i'm given, i just hope you all can understand it...

and just for a litle bit of drama, in case i do go and never return, Good Morning, Good Afternoon and Good Night.....hehe...no la... touch wood...

will update u guys as soon as i can.....

Monday, January 03, 2005

The New Year....

My very first entry of 2005... hmmm wonder what took me so long...hehe... anyways, just a few resolutions for this year... hopefully i can keep in line with them...hehe...

1) Quit Smoking
2) Get License
3) Get Car
4) Get Promotion
5) Get higher pay
6) Get girl

hehe... just a short summary of it....can't think much @ 430 in the morning....hehe... later...