How true is this?? u decide..
VIRGO
The Virgin Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right
now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring.
Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to.
Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted.
Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.
SCORPIO
The sex addict. Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy.
Intelligent.
Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in
bed.)
(GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy.
Attractive.
Easy going. Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic.
Caring.
LIBRA
The lame lover. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They
meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet!
Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person
you wanna #### with...
u might end up crying... the most irresistible.
ARIES
The Liar, Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to #### with.
Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed.
Excellent kisser
EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships.=) Addictive. Loud.
best in bed.
AQUARIUS
Does it in the water. Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind.
Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely
energetic.
Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations.
Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.
Amazing in bed, THE BEST LOVERS BETTER THAN EVERYONE!
GEMINI
Does Twosomes. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good
in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the #### out.
Trustworthy. Always happy.
Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a
beautiful smile. Generous. Strong.
ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.
LEO
The Lion in bed Great talker. Sexy and passionate.
Laid back.
Knows how to have fun. Is really good at. Great kisser. Unpredictable.
Outgoing. Down to earth.
Addictive. Attractive. Loud.
Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with.
Rare to find. Good when found.
CANCER
The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ### appeal.Great in bed!!!
Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever
meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it.
Freak in bed. Spontaneous.Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But
will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should
hold on to.
PISCES
The Piece of ass. Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention.
Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high ### appeal. Has the last word.
The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around.
Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way.
Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful.
A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants.
Loves to joke.
Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.
CAPRICORN:.
The passioate Lover Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.
Intelligent. Sexy.
Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long
relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants.
BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in
sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke.
Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget.
Smart.
TAURUS
The Tramp Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find!
Loves being in long
relationships.Likes to give a good fight for what they
want.
Extremely outgoing. Sexy as .........
Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny.
Awesome personality. Stubborn.
Sexual as .........
Most caring person you will ever meet!
One of a kind. Not one to #### with.
Are the most sexiest people on earth!
SAGITTARIUS
The Sexy one. Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to
find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one.
So much love to give. Not one to mess with.
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet!
Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed?
Not the kind of person you wanna with you might end up crying.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Man are from Mars and Women from Venus
This is a good one. retrieved from forum: hahaha... how true...
I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so
I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so
much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I
have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their
heart.
FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed.
Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to
hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?"
Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.
The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with
her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big
unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on
several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to
take so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to
compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit.
We went onto the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings.
Let me tell you...she was so excited. She must have thought I was
one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey."
She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement.
Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all
dear, let's go to the cashier."
I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't
feel like it." Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled. WHAT?"
I then said "honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while.
You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?"
Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Food for Thought
"To the world, you may only be one person,
But to that person, you might be his / her world."
Nothing need be said about this.
Straight forward and to the point.
Full Stop.
But to that person, you might be his / her world."
Nothing need be said about this.
Straight forward and to the point.
Full Stop.
Monday, March 05, 2007
More time for myself.
Its been a while since i blogged..
Guess driving around in the stink mobile has kinda got me hooked.. he he..
Life's not exactly been good since coming back from Australia..
some of it have been better, some of it have taken a turn for the worst..
Oh well, you win some, u lose some...
Have nearly died twice now while driving.. Being the P Plated driver that i am, nearly drove into the ocean on one occasion, and turned out of a filter lane on another occasion, nearly being beheaded by the oncoming bus, which i failed to notice... good thing is, so far, have not encountered my first road block yet.. mildly could be due to the fact that I'm good?? Na, i think otherwise..
Works been its usual bitchy self.. Even when we are having so called "ad min" time, there still seems to be so much to do.. It never ends man, I'm telling u.. that light in the end of the tunnel seems to be getting dimmer and dimmer by the second.. Sometimes, i really wonder if my boss is aware of the pressure that we face from him.. He seems so nonchalant about it at times, like as though we owe him a living.. But then again, on the flip side, there are moments whereby i feel he's doing a good job.. Maybe its just me..
I really need to spend more time with myself.. kinda get the feeling that I'm losing touch with myself, being so busy with work and everybody else.. always putting others before me.. dun get me wrong, i enjoy helping others. The feeling it brings is one of the best in the world, if there is even a comparison for it. But sometimes, just sometimes, i question myself. I always help others but will others help me when my time of need comes? I'm not going to doubt some of the people that i know will cover my back. but how about others? Have i done enough to "qualify" as a part of their life?? I guess its something that i can only live in time to find out.. Sometimes the least expected will surprise you in more ways than one..
More time for myself.
More time for myself.
More time for myself.
Thats my new resolution for the time being.
Guess driving around in the stink mobile has kinda got me hooked.. he he..
Life's not exactly been good since coming back from Australia..
some of it have been better, some of it have taken a turn for the worst..
Oh well, you win some, u lose some...
Have nearly died twice now while driving.. Being the P Plated driver that i am, nearly drove into the ocean on one occasion, and turned out of a filter lane on another occasion, nearly being beheaded by the oncoming bus, which i failed to notice... good thing is, so far, have not encountered my first road block yet.. mildly could be due to the fact that I'm good?? Na, i think otherwise..
Works been its usual bitchy self.. Even when we are having so called "ad min" time, there still seems to be so much to do.. It never ends man, I'm telling u.. that light in the end of the tunnel seems to be getting dimmer and dimmer by the second.. Sometimes, i really wonder if my boss is aware of the pressure that we face from him.. He seems so nonchalant about it at times, like as though we owe him a living.. But then again, on the flip side, there are moments whereby i feel he's doing a good job.. Maybe its just me..
I really need to spend more time with myself.. kinda get the feeling that I'm losing touch with myself, being so busy with work and everybody else.. always putting others before me.. dun get me wrong, i enjoy helping others. The feeling it brings is one of the best in the world, if there is even a comparison for it. But sometimes, just sometimes, i question myself. I always help others but will others help me when my time of need comes? I'm not going to doubt some of the people that i know will cover my back. but how about others? Have i done enough to "qualify" as a part of their life?? I guess its something that i can only live in time to find out.. Sometimes the least expected will surprise you in more ways than one..
More time for myself.
More time for myself.
More time for myself.
Thats my new resolution for the time being.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
*The Story of the 8 Monkeys*
(This is based on an actual experiment conducted in the UK) :
Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading
to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling.
Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed
with ice water, which makes them miserable. Soon enough, whenever a monkey
attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys, not wanting to be
sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.
Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder.
Then one of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the
room. Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other
monkeys are doing the obvious. But undaunted, he immediately begins to climb
the ladder.
All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly. He has no idea why.
however, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.
A second original monkey is removed and replaced. The newcomer again
attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out
of him.
This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the
receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other
monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new
monkey.
One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced. Eight new monkeys are now
in the room. None of them have ever been sprayed by ice water.
None of them attempt to climb the ladder. All of them will enthusiastically
beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.
*..................and that is how most companies' policies get established.*
Sometimes, it feels like this at the workplace. Employees just do certain
procedures because others are doing the same....without knowing why they do
them and whether what they have been doing all along can be improved or
changed. They say its the policy. At times, it feels it's just the
standard practices that have been passed down from employee to employee.
Nothing else.
Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading
to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling.
Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed
with ice water, which makes them miserable. Soon enough, whenever a monkey
attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys, not wanting to be
sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.
Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder.
Then one of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the
room. Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other
monkeys are doing the obvious. But undaunted, he immediately begins to climb
the ladder.
All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly. He has no idea why.
however, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.
A second original monkey is removed and replaced. The newcomer again
attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out
of him.
This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the
receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other
monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new
monkey.
One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced. Eight new monkeys are now
in the room. None of them have ever been sprayed by ice water.
None of them attempt to climb the ladder. All of them will enthusiastically
beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.
*..................and that is how most companies' policies get established.*
Sometimes, it feels like this at the workplace. Employees just do certain
procedures because others are doing the same....without knowing why they do
them and whether what they have been doing all along can be improved or
changed. They say its the policy. At times, it feels it's just the
standard practices that have been passed down from employee to employee.
Nothing else.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
My Pictorial Holidays...
Monday, December 18, 2006
A big fat hole in my pocket...

This is the car I'm getting... the exact model and exact colour... Finally, after so many years of planning to get a damn car, its finally coming.. no more resolutions for the next 5 yrs at least!!!! ha ha!!
No doubt it'll only be a weekend car but thankfully, this lifestyle of mine suits it perfectly... ha ha!!! if all goes well, then it should be here by the end of next month.. time to start the countdown...
Next up on the list will be to save enough money to get back to sch... damn degree courses are costing a bomb nowadays but haiz, no choice la...
Gosh!!! haven't done any Christmas shopping yet.. Should really start soon though..
These days are the best.. where there is no work and everything revolves around lazing at home and wondering what to do for the day... though i must admit that it kinda takes some getting used to..
next up on the calendar, CHRISTMAS!!!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I'm Back.. Thank God!!!
The trip was all in all a disappointment if you ask me..
No doubt it was a change in environment but sadly, nothing that i envisioned that it would be.. work, work and more work kept me busy throughout and when i finally had time after everything was over, was forced to stay in, feeling like some prison cell, for like 4 days., Imagine in a foreign country with nothing to do, about 1 hours drive away from civilisation, with no vehicle to get there what so ever, for 4 freakin days.. was close to crazy by the end of the first day.. now looking back, really have no idea how the hell i survived that...
anyways, its great to be back.. missed all my frens, my family, my beloved girlfren and so many more to mention..
and also, its time to try to get the car!!!! hope santa's listening...
now only to survive the few days that i have to go back to work..
oh btw, anybody interested in taking up rock climbing???
No doubt it was a change in environment but sadly, nothing that i envisioned that it would be.. work, work and more work kept me busy throughout and when i finally had time after everything was over, was forced to stay in, feeling like some prison cell, for like 4 days., Imagine in a foreign country with nothing to do, about 1 hours drive away from civilisation, with no vehicle to get there what so ever, for 4 freakin days.. was close to crazy by the end of the first day.. now looking back, really have no idea how the hell i survived that...
anyways, its great to be back.. missed all my frens, my family, my beloved girlfren and so many more to mention..
and also, its time to try to get the car!!!! hope santa's listening...
now only to survive the few days that i have to go back to work..
oh btw, anybody interested in taking up rock climbing???
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Till 9 Dec
Take care of yourselves till i get back...
I'll try to coax Santa and some kangaroos back...
Take care yall
I'll try to coax Santa and some kangaroos back...
Take care yall
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Counting Down The Days
Its only about a week more before i fly to Australia...
its great if you're going there for a holiday, but sadly, i do not have that luxury.. I'm flying there to work.. Damn it...
Well, whole long laundry list of things for me to do before i fky.. Have to submit my stuff by this week and i still haven't even started packing.. OhMIGOsh!!!! oh well, knwoing myself, i'll probably pack light... i mean, how much clothes can you possibly bring for three weeks??? hopefully, i don't contradict myself on this... hehe
Life's kinda good now that i've finally gotten that damn driving license of mine.. Six bloody years of taking it.. (Hey, stop laughing), must be a record of sorts though i must say a pass on my first attempt for the actual practical is a considerable achivement... hehe.. Looking at a whole list of cars now within my budget.. Hopefully if all goes well,can settle the payment by the time i get back frm Australia den i can zip around in my very own car!! so exciting.. Goodness, feel like a small kid now with a new toy to play with.. hehe..
On a more serious note, next immediate task in hand would be to park my sorry little ass back in school... looking at a degree course in MDIS.. Hopefully the payment won't be as much i think it would be.. Really have to start watching what i spend if i plan to buy a car an study as well...
Clubbing!!!! i wan to go clubbing!!!! but after the MOS experience, i have learnt never to open bottles again even if i have a wallet fullof cash.. That night really killed me, now looking back on hindsight.. Even though, i must admit, had a great time with the company i had that night, still, the suffering at the end of the month really doesn't seem to fir the bill completely... oh well, some lessons are probably menat to learnt this way.. hehe.. just take it as it comes and TRY not to do it again lor...
Dun think i've been spending enough time with everybody altely.. Work is being its usual self, taking up almost all the time that i have, leaving me only 2 days to try to fit everybody's schedule in.. so sorry if i haven't been able to meet up with anybody at all, promise after Australia, Christmas period will be a blast!!!
And lastly, i'm sorry darling if i've been neglecting you for a while... I can always hide behind the excuse of work, but i think i'm mostly to blame as well.. Promise i'll try to spend more time with you after i get back ok?? I LOVE YOU!!!
Did i mention that i'm in the office now taking a break??
its great if you're going there for a holiday, but sadly, i do not have that luxury.. I'm flying there to work.. Damn it...
Well, whole long laundry list of things for me to do before i fky.. Have to submit my stuff by this week and i still haven't even started packing.. OhMIGOsh!!!! oh well, knwoing myself, i'll probably pack light... i mean, how much clothes can you possibly bring for three weeks??? hopefully, i don't contradict myself on this... hehe
Life's kinda good now that i've finally gotten that damn driving license of mine.. Six bloody years of taking it.. (Hey, stop laughing), must be a record of sorts though i must say a pass on my first attempt for the actual practical is a considerable achivement... hehe.. Looking at a whole list of cars now within my budget.. Hopefully if all goes well,can settle the payment by the time i get back frm Australia den i can zip around in my very own car!! so exciting.. Goodness, feel like a small kid now with a new toy to play with.. hehe..
On a more serious note, next immediate task in hand would be to park my sorry little ass back in school... looking at a degree course in MDIS.. Hopefully the payment won't be as much i think it would be.. Really have to start watching what i spend if i plan to buy a car an study as well...
Clubbing!!!! i wan to go clubbing!!!! but after the MOS experience, i have learnt never to open bottles again even if i have a wallet fullof cash.. That night really killed me, now looking back on hindsight.. Even though, i must admit, had a great time with the company i had that night, still, the suffering at the end of the month really doesn't seem to fir the bill completely... oh well, some lessons are probably menat to learnt this way.. hehe.. just take it as it comes and TRY not to do it again lor...
Dun think i've been spending enough time with everybody altely.. Work is being its usual self, taking up almost all the time that i have, leaving me only 2 days to try to fit everybody's schedule in.. so sorry if i haven't been able to meet up with anybody at all, promise after Australia, Christmas period will be a blast!!!
And lastly, i'm sorry darling if i've been neglecting you for a while... I can always hide behind the excuse of work, but i think i'm mostly to blame as well.. Promise i'll try to spend more time with you after i get back ok?? I LOVE YOU!!!
Did i mention that i'm in the office now taking a break??
Friday, November 03, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Watching the most loved game...
watching soccer is, i must say, a most frustating thing...
especially when the team that u support plays like shit, the other team seems to be an entire team of hollywood actors, that upon slightest contact, drops on the floor like as though they've been hit by a sniper..
On hindside, england are very unlucky.. Gerrard the man ain't playing, they chose of all moments to change a formation, and concede two freakily unlucky goals... man, suddenly it feels like the sunday soccer league that i was playing over the weekend could produce better action..
You would never believe the second goal...
especially when the team that u support plays like shit, the other team seems to be an entire team of hollywood actors, that upon slightest contact, drops on the floor like as though they've been hit by a sniper..
On hindside, england are very unlucky.. Gerrard the man ain't playing, they chose of all moments to change a formation, and concede two freakily unlucky goals... man, suddenly it feels like the sunday soccer league that i was playing over the weekend could produce better action..
You would never believe the second goal...
Monday, October 02, 2006
Twenty Fuckin Four
It came and went...
Its official.. I'm twenty fuckin four...
Old as a bird man..
The eve was spent drinkin at Charmaine's place... loads of fun till the host decided to bless the house with her lovely puke... all in all it was great fun...
The day itself was generally a real lazy day... didn't go out till the evening when i met corrinne... made our way down to East Coast for a generaly great drinking session...
The venue was ok but the company was first class.. no words to describe it actually..
I sincerely would like to thank all who made it down..
Deep down inside though, i do feel a tad bitter about those who didn't make it down.. not that i'm pissed with them or anything.. i'm sure they have their reasons for not being able to make it, but still it does leave a wound deep within...
I just hope they all know how much they mean to me, near or far... Hopefully its a feeling i never experience again cuz i know its something i dun ever wan to be guilty of...
twenty fuckin four...
nice ring to it...
Its official.. I'm twenty fuckin four...
Old as a bird man..
The eve was spent drinkin at Charmaine's place... loads of fun till the host decided to bless the house with her lovely puke... all in all it was great fun...
The day itself was generally a real lazy day... didn't go out till the evening when i met corrinne... made our way down to East Coast for a generaly great drinking session...
The venue was ok but the company was first class.. no words to describe it actually..
I sincerely would like to thank all who made it down..
Deep down inside though, i do feel a tad bitter about those who didn't make it down.. not that i'm pissed with them or anything.. i'm sure they have their reasons for not being able to make it, but still it does leave a wound deep within...
I just hope they all know how much they mean to me, near or far... Hopefully its a feeling i never experience again cuz i know its something i dun ever wan to be guilty of...
twenty fuckin four...
nice ring to it...
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Depressingly Older...
Happy Birthday to me!!!
Twenty fuckin 4...
Time flies.. halfway to retirement....
Twenty fuckin 4...
Time flies.. halfway to retirement....
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
One of the less common days...
I'm sick...
not in the head.. but sick.. cough cough, throat hurts like crazy sick, u know what i mean??
Gotta go to the doc to get some medicine man.. my throat is killing me..
Least dun have to work today... its kinda like a good and bad thingy.. good knowing that i dun have to travel my ass halfway round singapore just to get to work and be totally exhausted.. bad in a way that i've still tons of work yet to be done... think i'm becoming a partial workaholic...
Went for a driving lesson last week for the first time in a long time..
my test is next month and really dun think i'm getting enough practice...
and as a testiment to how bad it was, here's what my instructor told me...
Instructor: You are driving very confidently, BUT you have to check your blind spots, your blah blah blah......
Think i'm playing too much Need for Speed... :(
not in the head.. but sick.. cough cough, throat hurts like crazy sick, u know what i mean??
Gotta go to the doc to get some medicine man.. my throat is killing me..
Least dun have to work today... its kinda like a good and bad thingy.. good knowing that i dun have to travel my ass halfway round singapore just to get to work and be totally exhausted.. bad in a way that i've still tons of work yet to be done... think i'm becoming a partial workaholic...
Went for a driving lesson last week for the first time in a long time..
my test is next month and really dun think i'm getting enough practice...
and as a testiment to how bad it was, here's what my instructor told me...
Instructor: You are driving very confidently, BUT you have to check your blind spots, your blah blah blah......
Think i'm playing too much Need for Speed... :(
Saturday, August 19, 2006
The age of the life less led by many...
I think age is finally beginning to catch up with me...
All my life, i dun think i've ever things i was suppose to be doing at the age..
take for example, my career choice.. who goes to the door of the government and asks to be enlisted in the army?? At the age of 16, whereby everyone else in the right frame of mind is slogging for thier 'O's, i nicely go into the army and serve my country.. Sounds patriotic?? my ass.. at 18, the whole world is enjoying their youth, going out to partys and getting drunk, i'm slogging this little butt of mine in the army, playing 'mother' to a bunch of guys who have no choice but to serve their country... At 23, i get a rank that most would associate to a guy in their late 20's..
Not that i'm complaining really.. this job has taught me many things, and moulded me into somebody i never thought i could be.. but as of many things, there is always a price to pay.. and this price for me, is the fact that i will never be able to live the life that everyone else went through...
I will never be able to tell anyone how poly life was.. just to name a point.. as little a deal as it moght be, it contributes to a whole bigger picture...
All these thoughts in my head seem to be permantly stuck there.. and its really affecting me in more ways than one..
realise how i must be sounding like a guy who has some permant disability..
well i'm halfway there i reckon..
All my life, i dun think i've ever things i was suppose to be doing at the age..
take for example, my career choice.. who goes to the door of the government and asks to be enlisted in the army?? At the age of 16, whereby everyone else in the right frame of mind is slogging for thier 'O's, i nicely go into the army and serve my country.. Sounds patriotic?? my ass.. at 18, the whole world is enjoying their youth, going out to partys and getting drunk, i'm slogging this little butt of mine in the army, playing 'mother' to a bunch of guys who have no choice but to serve their country... At 23, i get a rank that most would associate to a guy in their late 20's..
Not that i'm complaining really.. this job has taught me many things, and moulded me into somebody i never thought i could be.. but as of many things, there is always a price to pay.. and this price for me, is the fact that i will never be able to live the life that everyone else went through...
I will never be able to tell anyone how poly life was.. just to name a point.. as little a deal as it moght be, it contributes to a whole bigger picture...
All these thoughts in my head seem to be permantly stuck there.. and its really affecting me in more ways than one..
realise how i must be sounding like a guy who has some permant disability..
well i'm halfway there i reckon..
Monday, August 07, 2006
Do we really see all around us??
The weekend was welcomed with open arms for me.. Afterwhat seems like an eternity of a week at work, it was much welcomed for me to relax.. however, on friday, i guess the toll of work got the better of me..
I'm so sorry babes for throwing a kiddy fit that night.. Guess frustrations at work have been building up to cause me to blow up a minor fit that night.. Hope u guys will forgive me.. :)
We often underestimate the importance of friendship.. So often we have frens we have known for donkey years but never seem to get around knowing them better... And so often when they are gone, only den do we realise what a fren he/she could have been.. Too late to make amends..
Angelo, i never really knew you well.. Despite having known you for yrs, we were always more of associates.. Frens who knew each other via other frens.. Now that its too late, all i can only say is that you will be dearly missed by all.. Your presence in the group will always be missed no matter what.. And we know you are in a better place now with the Lord..

Frome left: Angelo, Carole and Rene
Angelo
(1985 - 2006)
I'm so sorry babes for throwing a kiddy fit that night.. Guess frustrations at work have been building up to cause me to blow up a minor fit that night.. Hope u guys will forgive me.. :)
We often underestimate the importance of friendship.. So often we have frens we have known for donkey years but never seem to get around knowing them better... And so often when they are gone, only den do we realise what a fren he/she could have been.. Too late to make amends..
Angelo, i never really knew you well.. Despite having known you for yrs, we were always more of associates.. Frens who knew each other via other frens.. Now that its too late, all i can only say is that you will be dearly missed by all.. Your presence in the group will always be missed no matter what.. And we know you are in a better place now with the Lord..

Frome left: Angelo, Carole and Rene
Angelo
(1985 - 2006)
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Problem after Problem, Time after Time..
As the heading suggests...
Work tops it all off.. Having negative emotions towards your work is a really dangerous thing.. Being a person who firmly believes in "passion for the job", it certainly doesn't help that work has been worst than a bitch of late.. Dun get me wrong, in certain ways, i love my job.. No where else gives you free lunches, a place to sleep and confirmed bonuses... But the catch to it really is beginning to feel as though it ain't worth the money..
To make things worse, some of the closest people i am to at work are leaving, just as i plan to do in a few years time.. However, the thought of them leaving unleashes this little tingy of jealousy within me.. When would it be my turn?? Can i honestly last till the end of my contract, the way things are going now?? I'm really kinda caught in between to begin with.. My bosses are ok, not too demanding and certainly rather understanding toward my cause.. But i guess its the duration of the time i've been on this job that is really starting to take its toll on me.. I've always been a roamer, a person who can never sit down for too long.. And certainly this part of my personality is telling me that i can't stay on this job forever.. I can't picture myself doing that too.. Guess in certain ways, just have to grit my teeth and finish off what i started..
As though that wasn't enough, to add to all that, time hasn't really been a good friend of mine.. Been finding myself not being able to spend enough time with my girlfriend, my family and my friends.. In fact, trying to squeeze out time for them can result in a whole reshuffle of schedules.. Ain't really gettin used to that...
To top it all off, i've finally realised that i've been suffering from insomnia for quite a while now.. it started with late nights working so it wasn't that bad.. Nowadys, in fact for the last year or so, i find myself having difficuly sleeping at night, be it whether i have something important on the next day.. Tossing and turning all night long makes it all the more worst.. Thoughts enter my head vividly and leave as soon as they arrive.. As a result, everything suffers from a chain effect from that.. Have really tried to force myself to re-adapt back but seem to be failing more often than not.. Worse than trying to quit smoking man..
Got to get my thoughts back in check and especially my life.. It just seems to be going downhill.. But then again, having lived this ridiculously colourful life of mine, have really taught myself that suffering never lasts forever.. Its only a matter of when..
Maybe i SHOULD see a doctor instead, other than the dentist that i finally decided to go..
Work tops it all off.. Having negative emotions towards your work is a really dangerous thing.. Being a person who firmly believes in "passion for the job", it certainly doesn't help that work has been worst than a bitch of late.. Dun get me wrong, in certain ways, i love my job.. No where else gives you free lunches, a place to sleep and confirmed bonuses... But the catch to it really is beginning to feel as though it ain't worth the money..
To make things worse, some of the closest people i am to at work are leaving, just as i plan to do in a few years time.. However, the thought of them leaving unleashes this little tingy of jealousy within me.. When would it be my turn?? Can i honestly last till the end of my contract, the way things are going now?? I'm really kinda caught in between to begin with.. My bosses are ok, not too demanding and certainly rather understanding toward my cause.. But i guess its the duration of the time i've been on this job that is really starting to take its toll on me.. I've always been a roamer, a person who can never sit down for too long.. And certainly this part of my personality is telling me that i can't stay on this job forever.. I can't picture myself doing that too.. Guess in certain ways, just have to grit my teeth and finish off what i started..
As though that wasn't enough, to add to all that, time hasn't really been a good friend of mine.. Been finding myself not being able to spend enough time with my girlfriend, my family and my friends.. In fact, trying to squeeze out time for them can result in a whole reshuffle of schedules.. Ain't really gettin used to that...
To top it all off, i've finally realised that i've been suffering from insomnia for quite a while now.. it started with late nights working so it wasn't that bad.. Nowadys, in fact for the last year or so, i find myself having difficuly sleeping at night, be it whether i have something important on the next day.. Tossing and turning all night long makes it all the more worst.. Thoughts enter my head vividly and leave as soon as they arrive.. As a result, everything suffers from a chain effect from that.. Have really tried to force myself to re-adapt back but seem to be failing more often than not.. Worse than trying to quit smoking man..
Got to get my thoughts back in check and especially my life.. It just seems to be going downhill.. But then again, having lived this ridiculously colourful life of mine, have really taught myself that suffering never lasts forever.. Its only a matter of when..
Maybe i SHOULD see a doctor instead, other than the dentist that i finally decided to go..
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Nice Guys ALWAYS Finish Last...
"Its really funny how life plays an everlasting game of chess with a one's emotions..
Its always waiting for you to make the next move, waiting for u to screw up big time..
You on the other hand, reluctant to be beaten time and again, struggle consistantly to keep up, preying the next wrong move that might be made...
And to our distinct disadvantage, life can just suddenly send distractions to take control of the situation, thus turning it back towards its favour..
And the sad part is we do not have any trump cards to return the favour what so ever.."
Saw this show today..Though i didn't get a chance to finish watching it, still it was really sad cuz it was one of those "nice guys finish last" kinda shows.. You know, its the worst situation to be in.. Being the nicest person but always ended up being taken advantage of.. Not to say that its done on purpose, but rather subconciously.. It was about this guy who always put others before him, people he loved, people he was willing to sacrifice his life for.. But sadly, life wasn't as fair to him as it should have been.. Already having a distraction of having somebody, he conveniently goes and falls for this other girl who was also attached.. But due to the fact that he was attached, he couldn't possibly fall for the other girl.. Supressing feelings within him, he had no choice but to love from a distance.. Being a good fren but wanting so much more.. As creepy as it sounds, it genuinely touched me on how sincere he was to this girl..
Sadly, it was to here that i had to go..
Must finish watching it though..
This also kinda reminds me of a post i put up a few months back...
This is to all the nice guys out there... Live on my frens!!!
Click here..
Its always waiting for you to make the next move, waiting for u to screw up big time..
You on the other hand, reluctant to be beaten time and again, struggle consistantly to keep up, preying the next wrong move that might be made...
And to our distinct disadvantage, life can just suddenly send distractions to take control of the situation, thus turning it back towards its favour..
And the sad part is we do not have any trump cards to return the favour what so ever.."
Saw this show today..Though i didn't get a chance to finish watching it, still it was really sad cuz it was one of those "nice guys finish last" kinda shows.. You know, its the worst situation to be in.. Being the nicest person but always ended up being taken advantage of.. Not to say that its done on purpose, but rather subconciously.. It was about this guy who always put others before him, people he loved, people he was willing to sacrifice his life for.. But sadly, life wasn't as fair to him as it should have been.. Already having a distraction of having somebody, he conveniently goes and falls for this other girl who was also attached.. But due to the fact that he was attached, he couldn't possibly fall for the other girl.. Supressing feelings within him, he had no choice but to love from a distance.. Being a good fren but wanting so much more.. As creepy as it sounds, it genuinely touched me on how sincere he was to this girl..
Sadly, it was to here that i had to go..
Must finish watching it though..
This also kinda reminds me of a post i put up a few months back...
This is to all the nice guys out there... Live on my frens!!!
Click here..
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
I'm Back...
Just arrived back yesterday from Hong Kong...
A great break.. Just exactly how i wanted it...
The company made it all the more better...
Will blog more about it in a few days when i can...
Back to work tommorow.. :(
till den...
A great break.. Just exactly how i wanted it...
The company made it all the more better...
Will blog more about it in a few days when i can...
Back to work tommorow.. :(
till den...
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