Friday, July 01, 2005


My dear, what small feet u have.... Posted by Hello

Dun ask me where corrinne was looking...Hmm... Posted by Hello

Come on PUNK!!! Who's Your DADDY?!?!? Posted by Hello

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Waiting

She sat by her grandmother's bed in the hospital. While her granny slept, the only thing which accompanied her was the sounds of her grandma's breathing aided by the machines, the mechenical beeping it made indicating her granny's heartbeat, and the pervasive silence all around... Sometimes, silence can really seem so loud. Especially when you're alone, and watching someone you love at their death bed, knowing still that it could go eitherway.

She had been here before. This had happened to granny too many times. Every few months ending up in the hospital as her condition deteriotated, from being bed ridden at home to being bed ridden in the hospital. The only change in the situation was the number of people at attention to deal with her either at home or the hospital.

She had lived a long hard life, and seemed like she would die the same way. Sometimes you wonder about how harsh life can be for someone like her to seem to suffer for so many years. Her husband died when she was 22, leaving her with 5 children. She worked two shifts at school to bring up her family. When she stopped working, she developed Bi-polar disorder - or perhaps it had always been inside her, but being without work triggered it full force. It was seemingly downhill from there... 40 odd years of suffering.

And here she lay... From all her efforts to build good lives for her children, here she lay.

Thoughts ran through her granddaughters mind... What if she died today? What would happen tomorrow? She always feared her granny dying on her watch. The second time that thought crossed her mind, her grandma's breathing DID STOP! The nurses rushed in to aid. She stepped aside to let them deal with it. Feeling as though she had brought it on by the thought.

She knew that her grandma was holding on for something. At the least, holding on to die at home, and not in the sterile environment of the hospital. She wanted to die in the place where she used to sleep best. At home, where so many memories were held.

Granny did survive this hospital stay. And a few more after that. A few more episodes of worrying, and wondering, and sometimes saying to granny "Why are you still holding on? Who are you holding on for? If you're tired, let go... Just let go..."

It may seem like a cruel thing to say. Knowing that in some subconsciouse state she can still hear you. Knowing that you want her to take that walk into the light...

When she finally did let go, in her own room, her own bed... The relief that came to the living could not be denied. She had suffered so long... 5 years bed ridden. For a woman who single handedly all on her own went through india to visit all the grand temples there! ON HER OWN! Certainly a feat for an Indian Woman! Aside from bringing up her children to be successful professionals all on her own while working two jobs.

Alass.. Her soul was put to rest.

It was for the best.

Rest in peace. You will always be loved and missed.

Quotes

Don't cry because it's over.Smile because it happened

Quote of the Day!

The naked truth is always better than the best-dressed lie

MOMENTS IN LIFE

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much
that you just want to pick them from your dreams
and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the closed door
that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human, and
enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

Don't count the years--count the memories...........

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away !

This Is Why I Don't Support InterMarriages!

Two men met at a bus stop and struck up a conversation. One of them kept complaining of family problems. Finally, the other man said: "You think you have family problems? Listen to my situation." "A few years ago I met a young widow with a grown-up daughter. We got married and got myself a stepdaughter. Later, my father married my stepdaughter. That made my stepdaughter, my step-mother. And my father became my stepson.

Also, my wife became mother-in-law of her father-in-law." "Much later the daughter of my wife, my stepmother, had a son. This boy was my half-brother because he was my father's son. But he was also the son of my wife's daughter which made him my wife's grand-son.That made me the grand-father of my half-brother."

"This was nothing until my wife and I had a son. Now the half-sister of my son my stepmother, is also the Grandmother. This makes my father, the brother-in-law of my child, whose stepsister is my father's wife!!, I am my stepmother's brother-in-law, my wife is her own child's aunt, my son is my father's nephew & I am my OWN GRANDFATHER!" "And you think you have FAMILY PROBLEMS!!!

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Finally!!!

Finally pay day has come and gone.....

For us army regulars, i guess payday is probably the happiest day of the month... Did i mention that it is also the most depressing?? Why?? Simply because after finding out that u finally have cash for the month, the thoughts of having to pay the bills start to cloud your mind... Its like yesterday morning... After checking my bank account, was so happy that it was finnaly pay day... 10 mins later on the internet, paid all my bills and felt as depressed as i first started.... Oh well, guess thats life..

Anyways, my promotion has finally been confirmed.. As of first july, i'm probably the youngest Staff Sergaent in the armed forces... Feels good though insignificant.... Only thing that makes me happier would be the well waited for pay rise...

Went to Coco Latte last night.. Hip hop there is pretty good.. though must say that place is really small....Went with carole, amanda and her frens, sophie and her boyfriend.. And i met an old fren of mine there.. Apparently, in school, this guy was really quiet and withdrawn... Won't really call him a nerd, but its more of like one of the people u least expect to meet in a club, let alone a hiphop club... Met some other old army mates of mine toos!!

Must really club more man... feels like through all these years, i've been missing all these, concentrating on nothing but work... Looks like its time to catch up with the time lost....

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Sunday...

Sadly, on this sunday, i'm working from home... not really slogging my guts out but den again, it ain't really enjoyable either... i mean, worrying about work 5 days a week is bad enough, but when it eats into your weekends, u know that something is very wrong.... And me, being the workaholic that i am, will end up burying myself into work immensely that i won't have time for anyone, thats right, even corrinne.... but luckily for this girlfriend of mine, she will be busy for these 2 weekends... Least she'll be keeping herself busy... On my part now, either than work, must find something else to keep myself busy...Hmmm...

CLUBBING THIS FRIDAY!!!! WOO HOO!!!! having been broke for the last few weeks, its a pretty much welcomed relief....Least can let my hair down... Been too damn busy to do that of late, but i'm preety sure things are sure to get worse....

Carole's been having some problems of late... Hope she's coping fine... Dun worry babe, i'll be behind u every step of the way, supporting that big butt of yours!!! hehe... Just don't fart!!!
Carole's really been a best mate of mine... Thanks for being there babe, for the haircuts, the moments with me in the darkest moments in my life...

Come to think of it, there are several people in my life that i really can't do without... These are the few people that i would really give up my life for... The angelus choir, carole, amanda, corrinne, pattys, rob,andi,rene.... Honestly, i wouldn't dare to imagine my life without these people... in fact, i wouldn't even be here today without the presence of them in my life...

Youth mass this morning was a killer... hehe.. in the sense that we had to be in church at 9 in the morning... GOODNESS!!! who wakes up so early on a sunday?!! SIAO!!!! anyways, there was this comment the priest made, after hearing a presentation by the youth group to rally more youths to go for youth week...

Priest: Parents! We are really interested in your children....

Sounds like something Wacko Jacko would say...

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Batman Begins?

Been having the insomnia spells again of late.. and probably due to work, its been getting worse...
A fine example would be now... Promised corrinne that i would get some sleep but after tossing on my bed for15 mins, decided to forego the sleep and stay awake till its time to go to work..
Sorry babe...

Work has really been killing me of late.. Suddenly, there has been a huge influx of activity pertaining to the website... Now, if only i had a team of people working together with me on the website, that wouldn't be so bad cuz we could like take shifts or something.. But the bad news for me is that I'm the only fool working on this website.. So everything has to go through me... Thankfully, my boss is trying his best to help me by doing whatever he can... Really appreciative of that.. But alas, it all still boils back down to me... And i reckon it really doesn't help the situation when i'm half asleep and stoned as hell in the day and wide awake at night....

Warner brothers really chose a great time to launch the movie "Batman Begins".. In many aspects, it really has begun...

Monday, May 23, 2005

Its the Hols

Its the hols....

Well, one day of it anyways...

And for the first time in a long time, i have nothing to do at home...No one to go out with, and not to mention, no cash to go out with as well...

Sucks man..

The last few days have been absolutely tiring...
Had some function at SPH on friday. Church on sat. Big Walk followed by the Choir Gathering at church on Sunday. And finally monday, i'm faced with the most tiring task of them all.... Trying to figure something to contend myself with on monday....

Corrinne is at her grandmother's place...
If only she were here now....

Oh well, enough of self ramblings.... Time to get back to work....

Friday, May 20, 2005

What luck...

WTH!!!!!

Found my keys this morning.... IN MY LAPTOP BAG WHICH I BROUGHT BACK YESTERDAY!!!!

Meaning to say silly ol me got 'locked out' yesterday for nothing... on my own accord!!!!

WTF!!!!

But on the bright side, leaset i got to spend some time with grass & jayet....

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Coincidences?

Its pretty fascinating how amazingly 'sway' a person can get...
A person like me that is...

Believe it or not, i'm blogging here, right outside my own house, with no keys to enter into the house cuz i forgot to bring them back from the office... i'm using my office laptop to tap into my wireless internet connections... so tat explains why i can blog here, right outside my house...

Was on duty yesterday... From last week, the whole internet connection int he army was down due to some reasons what so ever.... How to work???? So i decided to come home to work.... little did i know that fate was playing a practical joke on me man....

4 more hours to go before anyone comes home... Man its a long wait... what the hell am i going to do for the next few hours? can't stay on the cpu forever, cuz my batt will only last me another hour or so... Its times like that i wish i had a car or that my work place was like 5 mins away, and not an hours worth of travelling....

On a brighter note, gonna watch star wars tmr.... hope its worth the money man....

ok, gonna try to figure something to do while i'm locked out due to my own stupidity....

Hmmmm.....

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Good Shitz

DJ TIESTO PLAYS SOME SERIOUSLY GOOD SHITZ MAN!!!!

Saturday, May 14, 2005

The Hiding Place

Everybody has their own hiding place.... Be it in their rooms, a secret corner of the earth or even in their toilets.... For me, I'm no different from everyone else... Its just that my hiding pplace is a bit more mobile than others...hehe...

To me, blasting music into my ears is my luxury. My little hiding spot. The one place on earth where i feel totally alone and comfortable with myself at any time of the day. I bet those in the MRT trains at 6am in the morning will have something to say about that!!!

But anyways, to me, it brings me to whole new world. A world where i can't be disturbed and can really have all the time in the world to think about stuff i have to think through. The loud music just rings through my ears and through into my brain, thus helping me clear my mind. In certain ways, it provides me with the strength to actually even move. To others, it might just be a bit of adreneline, but for me, i guess its so much more than that.

Music having been such an important aspect of my life, really its quite impossible for me without it...

So next time if you see me with earphones plugged into my ears, dun bother trying to call out to me... cuz there's a high possibility that i won't be able to hear you.hehe...

Not to be rude or anything.... Its just quality time with me, myself and I.

Kinda freaky huh... Oh well, everyone's wierd in their own special way...

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Everyday

You know something, everyday i seem to be falling deeper and deeper...
In love that is...

Though i'm not usually one to say these kind of things but hey, running out of things to blog about....

So i just wanna give a great big shout out to my one and only, precious and delightful girlfriend of four months, Miss Corrinne Cheong!!!!!

I LOVE U!!!!!!

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Bad Boy

ok, i'm suppose to be like working on the webpage, to figure out why it keeps running out of line...
But.... oh well, anyways, finally i have changed the skin for the blog...
The old one coincidently began to stink...hehe...
okiz den, finally after 2 hours looking for a new skin, time to start work...
Wanna bet i'll end up sleeping?

Oh, did i mwntion i'm in camp, on duty?

HEHE!!!

Cheerios

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Thailand

The trip to thailand was a blast.... To me, it was really a good change of environment, as well as quality time spent with corrinne..and of course not to forget her family...

We departed Singapore on Saturday afternoon... A short 1 hour flight to Bangkok...

Corrinne: Eh, why my headphone no sound one?
Me: Lemme see....Errr... Darling, u haven't plugged in the headset...
Corrinne bursts out in a laughter, scary and loud enough to make everyone sit up and take notice....

Halfway through the flight, while watching the first episode of Joey, There's this damn funny scene whereby Joey doesn't know whuch camera to ook at... Its hilarious...and so is my beloved girlfriend... She bursts out laughing so loud that her mum has to turn behind from the seat in front of me, just to tell her to tone down her volume....

Stayed in the ARNOMA Hotel... for those with no sense of where is what, its a hotel directly opposite to the World Trade Centre of Bangkok... Checked in without hassle whatsoever... Ended up swapping rooms with corrinne's mum... Yahs!!!! Hey get that dirty thought out of ya head willya? I was sleeping in the same room as Corrinne and her grandmother...ON SEPARATE BEDS!!!!! not so bad la.. at least can talk to her at night, without the hassle of having to run around the rooms...

Went out for a walk after that... Wanted to take a cab to the other side of town, but sadly, there were no cabs avaliable... you should have seen how disappointed her mum was... On the flipside, Corrinne and her dad were very happy... Oh well, men & women....hehe...

Went to the Chao Paraya river the next morning... The standard tour stuff la... Visited the Temple of Dawn... Saw a catfish the size of a shark you would see in the aquarium @ Wisma Atria.... In the afternoon, we went to this place called Dreamworld. Its supposingly a theme park kind of place... Had quite a time there getting wet...

That was actually a bad thing... Cuz the next place we went to was actually a shopping centre... As the aircone blasted its damn cold air on us, corrinne and i were shivering as hell... had to buy new clothes just to feel more comfortable... so incidently, those were arguably the only things i bought in thailand...(other than airport tax of course...) As corrinne and i were too tired to do any more shopping later in the eveing after dinner, we skipped the shopping with the parents and went for a swim and some quality time alone... such a nice feeling...hehe...

Next morning, did a bit of walking around before going to the airport to cathc our flight back....

All in all, it was a reasonably great trip cuz of the time spent with her... Sadly, i couldn't get stuffs for my buddies and frens... so sorry, promise the next time i'm there, get the whole country back for ya...hehe...

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Coming soon

Going to thailand this weekend with corrinne and her family... boy is that a pressure cooker... lets just say its quite a big step, going abroad with your girlfreind and her family... just really hope that i won't go screw up anything that would jepordise anything between me, her and her family...
Anyways, will post up the pictures when i get back.. in the meantime, take care yall....